Here I am, writing a post for my blog, The Art Year. My previous post was in April, about 7 months ago. At the beginning of the year I had a big goal to hold myself accountable and post on my blog frequently. I wanted to do that because it would make me focus on my artwork. My ultimate goal was to study, advance and practice to better myself as an artist.
I have, in fact, kept up with my art, outside of my regular artwork, and am now producing work that is taking on new forms and developing nicely. I’ve kept up with my sketchbook, drawing almost daily. But for some reason I couldn’t seem to keep up with this blog.
I started thinking about why I haven’t been able to stick with posting. I really enjoy writing, especially when it’s philosophical stuff about art. It’s almost like when you’re having a conversation with yourself and someone else hears you, and you notice them looking at you and you say to them, “I’m just thinking out loud.” I feel like writing on my blog is like thinking out loud. It helps me work out ideas, work out issues I’m having with my art, or in other aspects of my art life. So the big pause in posts wasn’t because I didn’t like it. I’m really itching to say that life just got in the way, and that’s why I haven’t written. And that, my friends, is a big excuse. I’ve used that excuse a lot. Life is busy, so that’s why I wasn’t able to post on my blog, or work on a certain idea or whatever. I’m trying to drop that excuse, because the reality is life is busy for everyone, and it’s an easy out for not doing something.
I think I’ve figured it out though, and there are a few problems why I haven’t posted.
Problem 1, from what I can gather, is technology. I get sucked in. Sucked in to instagram, facebook, youtube. All the things that I have to use to be a successful artist. I use it to promote my art, I use it to study how others promote their work, I use it to get ideas, and then after all of those good reasons to use social media it takes me down the road of wasted time. There is nothing wrong with chilling out for a few minutes reading meme’s and watching cat videos. I don’t really overdo it in that department. The real problem is my distracted mind. All of those social media things keep your attention span short, and keeps your mind distracted. A distracted mind is an unorganized mind. The distraction actually made me forget that I should post on my blog. There was a time I kept thinking “I should post something on my blog.” Then there was a two or three month span where I never even thought about the blog. I was distracted enough times to forget about it.
Problem 2 is a more complicated one. I didn’t post because I didn’t really have a lot to say. There are aspects of life that make you become more introverted. I went through a few things during the summer and fall where I didn’t feel like talking to anyone because life kind of got crappy. Losing loved ones, losing pets, and other personal things can pile up on someone. I got to the point where I really didn’t want to post on social media, or any media for that matter. I just wanted to crawl into a cave and hang out there for awhile. Sometimes those are the perfect times to get lost in your art.
Problem 3 is a simple one. I was tired. If you’re a full time artist you’ll understand when I say being an artist is hard. It’s a really competitive place, and you can’t really take a break or everyone will forget about you. It’s kind of sad in a way, but I like that you have to bust your butt to be successful. Since I come from a sports background and love competition I like to work hard and try and do the best I can, in business and in art. With that said, sometimes you just get your butt kicked. I kind of went through that phase where I got my butt kicked. I got a little burnt out, took a break from teaching workshops, and ended up taking breaks from things I didn’t even expect to take breaks from, like this blog.
So with that said, I plan to finish the year out strong on my blog, so I hope you stay with me, comment and keep the conversations alive! It’s always nice to have someone hear my rambling. That way I’m not just thinking out loud or just talking to myself. Thanks for reading, it’s good to be back, and I’m ready to show you all the things I’ve been working on. Stay tuned! 🙂